Things I Can’t Say
I never thought I would hear myself say that there was something I couldn’t say or do.
I never thought I would feel so helpless and out of control.
I never thought life could change in just a few hours and I would never look at it the same.
I never thought I would prefer sitting alone and not talking, not wanting to say anything or see anyone.
I never thought a person could feel all of the emotions in one minute. To go from happy to scared, from guilty to fear, from angry to empty, to feel and yet be numb and not feel at all.
I never thought people you know would not understand you, yet those you never met would hurry to comfort you.
I never thought I would feel so alone despite everyone around me.
I never thought my life would be at the stage it is now.
I never thought it could hurt this much!
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tags : feeling lonely, firefly, guilt, life, loss, miscarriage, Mom, pregnancy loss
Sigh. I know it’s hard. I know you are aching and feeling empty. I know this feeling feels like it will last forever.
The first 2 weeks after a miscarriage are the hardest. Then day by day life will resume to a “new” normal. You will always miss your baby, and you’re right, nobody will understand. But I do. Your baby was with you. In you. Growing inside of you. A part of you. And now it’s not. That is the worst feeling in the world. (in my opinion). It’s just not fair.
Some things that help me grieve are:
counseling
couples counseling
anti-depressants (yes, many women end up needing anti-depressants after a miscarriage)
The ivillage miscarriage message board
Songs like John Mayer ‘In Repair’, Michael Buble ‘Lost’, Watermark ‘Glory Baby’
journaling
acupuncture
yoga
Sending you big (((HUGS)))
Thank you Yaya! I will try some of those things, now it seems nothing is working. Nothing is making me think about anything else…I know with time it will get better, but now it’s still so new, so shocking and so hard to believe!
Sending you ((HUGS))
xoxo
…thinking of you
You don’t have to do or feel anything but what you do right now.
If write helps, pour your heart out.
If screaming helps, grab a pillow and scream away.
You’ll get through this and we’re all here to help you!
thank you
Thank you, it really means a lot.
Please don’t let the nasty people hurt you even more. Their words are unkind and unaware of what they are doing.
If it makes you feel better write about it and we’ll always be here! Prayers are always with you! Much love.
I thought about you all day today. I’ll continue to say prayers to bring you comfort and peace and continue to send virtual hugs.
Thank you!
Thank you, it means a lot!