Random Firefly
December 15th, 2009 | 439 views | by firefly
This past week has been both unreal and slow and well anything you can imagine. Life is moving forward, or so it seems.
I can say that things have changed, but again in some ways for better and some for so much worst.
The update from the doctors. I went there yesterday seriously half hoping that last Monday was a big mistake and this whole past week. I was expecting to walk in the doctors office and hear something along the lines, “yes you are still pregnant, yes you are having the baby next summer”. But we all know that is not happening.
My physical state is much better than my emotional which is normal, I guess. My body is slowly returning to normal, even though my mind still feels like I’m pregnant. It will take time I know, even though most people around me think this is not a big deal, and I should stop thinking about it and feeling down.
Princess is still not quiet understanding why the baby is not coming, she still talks about the baby and how soon it will be here. I don’t really think at 4 and a half I should tell her more than I did, and I told her that baby will come, but not that soon. Not as soon as we hoped.
Hubby has been a huge help. I really appreciate all of the things he is doing and all of the time he is spending with me listening how I feel.
Also I want to thank you all for your kind comments on my site, and your awesome emails! You’re the best, and I love you all!!!
Now some happy talk. Well I have to lighten up the site just a little.
Princess and I finally decorated for Christmas this past Sunday. I wasn’t sure when I would decorate and it seemed like I will never, but my sweet baby girl was beyond excited to have the house “even prettier” so we did it.
We have canceled all of the parties we were suppose to host this month. I really don’t feel like having any celebrations. Still not sure will we go anywhere for Christmas, we feel like the best thing would be for us to stay at home!
Tell me: Where are you going for Christmas???
We do a little appetizers and dessert get-together on Christmas afternoon with extended family. That’s about it.
We usually go both to my parents house and to my in-laws and have something for the Christmas morning at home but this year all we really want to do is be home with Princess and enjoy family time (Hubby should have 4 days off)
(((Hugs)))
It took me about 2-3 months to get my body back to “normal” after my losses. It takes time for the hormones to regulate out, etc. I’m so sorry you are going through this. I can totally relate to thinking you’d go in to the dr today and it would all be a mistake. I’ve had those same thoughts.
You know I still have all of the “pregnancy” symptoms I had a week ago. The hormones are still up. It’s definitely not back to normal, but I like to think at least one part of me is doing better than the other. I’m sure you know what I mean! Bleeding has stopped and doctor thinks it’s a good sign!
I’m so sorry you are going through this right now. It’s a bad time of the year. Hope you feel like some holiday cheer soon!
Thanks! I don’t know what is with this 2009 but since December started everything is going downward for so many families
so sad!
I’m glad you’re doing a bit better and Princess is helping you with decorating and getting the day a little brighter!
Take it easy and time for yourself!
We’ll be staying home, actually just posted about it … LOL Oh well it will be good!
Thank you girlie! I’m visiting you today! Well hoping to at least, I need to start visiting blogs again!
Time for myself as you know is hard, there is always something that needs to be done, and someone that needs something!