After A Month
I didn’t feel like posting yesterday. I didn’t feel like doing anything.
It was 7th…exactly a month since miscarriage. No one remembered, no one cared, no one asks anymore…life goes on.
True, life goes on. We all do our daily things, we get up in the morning, we go to bed at night…
And than there is me!
Me thinking that I should be shopping for baby clothes now, not feel all this mess inside me and have nothing in the end.
I’m not taking this far. I’m not sitting here and constantly remind everyone of this. You know I’m not! Things on the blog got back to old schedule pretty quickly.
But I don’t understand why people think it’s better to forget?! To not think of it?! Forgetting it and not thinking about it is not changing the fact that it was here and it will always be known that it was here and it left too soon!!!
Tags: Baby, firefly, miscarriage, pregnancy loss
Suzana,
Words cannot say exactly how you feel – others are afraid to ask, not wanting to upset you – but we want our baby(ies) remembered. I’m sorry for your loss & wanted to share a site that has helped me through in the past: http://www.october15th.com/
Please don’t hesitate email me if you’d like to chat… not that chatting will make a difference, but maybe it’ll help – a little. My heart breaks.
Hang in there, HL
Thank you Heather so much for kind words and for the link. I’m going to check it out now. Also thank you for stopping by and following. I really appreciate it!
I think often people don’t know what to say so they don’t ask, but time really does heal trust me I have had two miscarriages and the only thing that heals is time but you never ever forget the pain, it just becomes more tolerable
It is much more tolerable now than it was few weeks ago, and I know with every day, every week it’s going to get easier. But you are right the pain is always there!
Miscarriage is a tough subject…it touches people in different ways. For me, when I lost my son, I was in the mindset that I wanted everyone around me to forget I was ever pregnant, I didn’t want to talk about it or share my feelings. I held on to my pain and memories of Gavin so tightly and wanted them all to myself.
If you need to talk, do it, if you need to cry, do it…do what helps YOU heal. Lead the way and we’ll be here to support you. (((Hugs))))
Thank you Cat so much ((hugs)) I’m so sorry about your baby boy.
There are days when I don’t want to talk about it, and than there are those when I just need to say something.
But I’m so much better than I was first two weeks. Those two weeks were the worst, the toughest.
It will get better!